Brock Rocks

February 16, 2011

One Year and Many Thanks

Filed under: Uncategorized — Vanessa @ 10:36 am

Think way back.  Before New Years’.  Before Thanksgiving.  Before Halloween.  All the way back to the beginning of October.  When the leaves were just starting to turn and the air was crisp and the hope of a beautiful fall and winter were spread before you.

Long time ago, huh?

Imagine only seeing your spouse for 10 minutes a day that entire time.  Imagine going from early October to mid-February and never having your entire family together for more than a few hours a week.  And even then, you don’t get to be at home with them.  You sit in a crowded hospital room with them and pray over your son whom the doctors have told you surely won’t live.

We walked into the hospital with Brock on October 6, 2009 and didn’t walk out with him until February 16, 2010.

That’s a long time.

But then, when we were stuck deep in the middle of it, we had no concept of how long it was.  It’s only now, one year from the day we first brought him home, that we can look back and see.

That’s a long time.

And how are we celebrating?  With a perfectly normal day.  The kids are at school.  Jay’s at work.  I’m at home, attempting to clean my entire house in 4 hours 3.5 hours.

God is good.

I wish I could look every one of you in the eyes and hold you by the shoulders and tell you “He. Is. Faithful.”

As we drove to the hospital on that October day I told Jay, “I know we’ll be ok.  I know, no matter what happens, even if Brock doesn’t live, we’ll be ok….I just don’t want this to be our road.”

And that’s still true.  I DON’T want this to be our road…Brock’s road.  I want him to be able to run and jump and talk and eat just like {almost} every 2 year old boy.  I want him to be able to fall down without worrying about what his platelet count is or take an extra long nap without worrying that his hemaglobin is low or get a fever without having to go to the ER.  I want to live without the underlying fear of relapse.

But.  But we have been so blessed along this road.  He. Is. Faithful.  We’ve grown and learned and loved more than we ever thought capable.  And God has used all of you, many times over, to be a blessing to us.

And now God is using all of you and our families to bless us again.  We are totally, utterly, humbly grateful.

Thank you.  A million times over, thank you.


  1. Thank YOU Vanessa for opening your lives to us (many of us who haven’t even actually met you in person, but love you, pray for you and want the very best God has to offer you). Thank YOU for reminding me – often daily – that I need to thank God despite the circumstances because yes, He. Is. Faithful. Clean your house today praising God for normalcy! 🙂

    Comment by Brenda Bracklein — February 16, 2011 @ 10:51 am

  2. What a great reminder that we do serve an AWESOME GOD, HE loves us no matter what. You have to be enjoying this time even though it can be tough, as others I have never meet your family but feel that we all have way to much in common. My family has been through the trials of cancer and came out on the other side and with GOD’s Love and Grace we are all survivors. Praying that HE continues to bless all of you and cover you with HIS GRACE.

    Comment by linda — February 16, 2011 @ 11:12 am

  3. Brock may be your child, but he is such an important part of my life too. Not a day goes by that I do not think of you and your family and pray for all of you. You will probably never meet me in this life but we will know each other instantly in heaven. God bless you all.

    Comment by — February 16, 2011 @ 4:26 pm

  4. Vanessa,
    We thank you for making us a part of your difficult journey. We consider it an honor to pray for y’all and your family and for all those we pray for.
    We feel called to pray for others and that is why we do this, it is because of the “good results” such as Brock’s that we keep doing it, we know He listens and we are more than happy to speak to him on behalf of those we pray for.
    That is why occasional follow up messages are appreciated, we become like and extension of your family and like to know how things are going like your (normal day). It allows us sit back and smile and say YES
    God Bless (and you are welcome ;0)

    Comment by Barbara Whipple — February 16, 2011 @ 11:25 pm

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